Saturday

Yesterday was made up of football, laundry, football, more laundry, more football and even more laundry. In addition to that we squeezed in a million baby feedings, diapers and a trip to Wal-mart. Then Tyler and I had a fabulous date night!!! It consisted of chocolate ice cream, raspberries and Pride and Prejudice. 

I had to keep reminding myself to lower my expectations for the day. Somehow I never learn though. I fully expect to accomplish 10 times more than is realistic every single day...accept for the days I just give up from the beginning and accomplish nothing more than feeding people, giving rides and diapers.  Knowing this about myself I decided to try and be happy with the idea that I would just get all the laundry washed and put away for the day.  It's painful for me to make small plans. It turns out it wasn't such a small plan after all.  3 loads were left unwashed by bedtime and plenty more was not put away. And that was with both Tyler and I working on it.

I'm not sure why I think I am superwoman, but every day I do and every day I feel guilty about how little I accomplish.

I had an impression about that yesterday. That If I am sure to cut out the unnecessary things that clutter up my life I will not feel guilty about the time it takes to do the necessary and that I will have plenty of time--I won't feel rushed and I will enjoy what I do.

I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father. Grateful that he is aware of me and speaks to me in quiet simple ways.

I am glad I accomplished as much as I did and that I had time to spend with Tyler last night doing something fun.

One last thing. Joshua likes to be at home!!! Somehow that makes me feel like I am doing something significant. I was nervous about that after he was born and before I guess. I worry about my older boys wanting to be with me...wanting to be at home and feeling comfortable here. It's hard because they (Grant and Spencer) have two homes. I don't want them to prefer mine over their dads. I just want them to enjoy being here with me. I guess I had the same concern for Joshua when he was born. I was worried he would feel sad or lonely missing the the more perfect home and parents he just recentlycame from. The fact that he finds our home comforting and peaceful makes me feel like we are getting a few things right.

I love my family! Can't wait to see Grant and Spencer tonight at 6pm when they get back from their weekend with their Dad.  Spencer likes to have a "fancy" dinner on Sundays so fancy dinner it is.  A fancy dinner is some kind of meat, mashed potatoes, gravy and steamed carrots.