Sharing more of my life

Taking the plunge and posting more appropriately personal things here.  I have often struggled with sharing too much. And as a result from the feedback I get I choose to then share too little and around and around I go in this fashion never quite sure I am sharing what I should. I copied and pasted the following from the church website“Sharing the good news of the gospel is easier and the effects more far-reaching than ever before. . . . Perhaps the Lord’s encouragement to ‘open [your] mouths’ might today include ‘use your hands’ to blog and text message the gospel to all the world!” . . .

“With the blessings of modern technology, we can express gratitude and joy about God’s great plan for His children in a way that can be heard . . . around the world. Sometimes a single phrase of testimony can set events in motion that affect someone’s life for eternity.” — President Dieter F. Uchtdorf (Ensign, May 2011, “Waiting on the Road to Damascus.”)

 Elder Bednar goes on to say, “We do not share the gospel merely to increase the numerical size and strength of the latter-day Church. Rather, we seek to fulfill the divinely appointed responsibility to proclaim the reality of the Father’s plan of happiness, the divinity of His Only Begotten Son, Jesus Christ, and the efficacy of the Savior’s atoning sacrifice.” —Elder David A. Bednar of the Quorum of the Twelve

I want to do this...

Not in the way I have done in the past but In the way I should do it now. I have changed and learned a lot over the course of the last 13 ish years (about how long I have been active in the church). And with that experience I have gained an understanding of the connection that lies between service and answers,  Living genuinely, repentance and answers, faith and fear not coexisting together and answers and the absolutely shocking attentiveness our Heavenly Father is capable of.  He knows me inside and out and loves me anyway. It is this love that I hope will guide my efforts to live my life well and in turn share the gospel.  My experience with life in general and the blessings of the atonement have strengthened my testimony to the point that I can't not share it. I have found a peace and happiness in my life that has not been available anywhere else. There is a plan and Jesus is the Christ. He atoned for my sins and I know it.

Earlier today, 4:30 am early, I had a thought about my children, a fear rather and acted or reacted actually.  Almost as soon as I realized my mistake there was a quiet but powerful answer. An answer to an unspoken prayer. A constant prayer that I have. A really genuine desire to understand and act on Heavenly Father's will for me in all situations.

I felt peace, and love and an assurance that I would have the ability to address the concern properly.  And some insight as to how I could go about doing it. A model to follow.  I felt a sense of trust from my Heavenly Father in me. I don't trust myself a lot. But, I do trust Him.  I can lean on that trust and it feels really good. It takes quite a load off really.

I realize now that I have so often let fear rob me of my peace. I have allowed the fear that I will make a mistake get in my way and trip me on my journey.  I hope this mornings lesson sticks. I hope I can make faith a bigger part of my every day life.  I know my prayers are answered and I know that my Heavenly Father loves me and will guide me in all that I do.

(These are my personal views...for the official views of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day saints go to the website www.mormon.org.)