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Saturday, February 21, 2009

Feeling down

I've got the blues tonight. I have been around and admiring some good friends today and have been reminded how far I have to go to be like them. I have the friends who are just beautiful all the time(hair make-up etc.). Friends that keep their homes perfectly clean and organized, a friend that has been runner-up to Miss America to name one of her many wonderful accomplishments, and I have friends who will sacrifice their whole day to be with me and help me pack, friends that bring over a symphony bar, Valentines gift and teary eyes to share in a loss with me. I have such good friends. I have beautiful, capable, intelligent, sewing, organized friends and to be honest I look at myself and think what is it I do or have that makes me a valuable friend to them. Is their anything... or am I the friend that others keep because they feel sorry for me. I guess I am just having a little pity party...but I really am feeling inadequate and so so very grateful at the same time for the many great people I call friends. I can't even write a coherent blog post with proper Grammar. I need to get some skills people! Good night y'all maybe I will feel better in the morning!

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Ford Family said...: Kristie, you are a great friend, I always felt that you were so much like me. It was so nice to spend time with someone who you felt understood who you were and what you were trying to do, someone who had the same standards and wasn't at all judgemental. I remember when you learnt Albanian in order to help Lundita- you not only understood her needs, but did something about it- that is what makes a true friend. Hope you have a fantastic day tomorrow. x; February 22, 2009 at 11:27 AM
Jacksons said...: You know that all through junior high and high school and college, etc you were the "cool" friend I could only hope to be like, right? The one who knew how to act in social situations, had great instincts for hair and makeup, was incredibly creative and talented, really popular, and projected a great sense of self-confidence? And still wanted to be friends with me? Just thought you should know. :); February 24, 2009 at 3:18 PM
Leigh said...: Everyone is admired by someone, usually we are unaware of those that admire us. It may be a parent, a sibling, a friend and child. Yet it is how we define ourself that concerns us most.

Kristie, you are admired by so many and yet you let your head trick you into thing that are not important to your kids and Matt. They are what matters most. Every time you judge yourself you do them a disservice. They accept you and love you for who you are, their mom and wife.

I accept you as my friend, I never judge you. You are an inspiration to me and so many reading your blog.; March 7, 2009 at 12:51 AM

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Saturday, February 21, 2009

Feeling down

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